depressed.

you know the feeling you get when you know someone all your life and suddenly, bang! you dont know him anymore..
any of you know how that feels like?

guess i just went through that.

i wont say who that person was. 'cause he probably wants me to keep it a secret. he didnt even let me know. in fact, i think nobody knows. i seriously cant believe it. why cant he just talk to me? like i said, i've known him ALL my life. so.. why?

now im feeling depressed. for him. not because he wont tell me. but because of all that pain he felt inside.

now..
BACK TO MY LIFE.

these few days were.. exhausting.

tests, tests, tests.
homework, homework, homework.
heavy bag, heavy bag, heavy bag.
dying, dying, dying.

wont go into much details for now.

mdm nava is really irritating. ugh.
chinese class is really boring. ugh.
social studies is the worst. ugh.

dont feel like blogging already. no mood. next time i will try to go into details.

till then~

back to blog.

yesterday..

19january2008

almost breakdown many many times during the day. and finally did in the mrt home.
it was a damn horrible day.
i was stranded opposite lutheran towers 'cause i missed my stop. then i was broke. cant take a cab back. ez link no money also. so i called sheng en. then i called my brother. then i called emily. then i called belinda. then i called sheng en again. then emily call back. LOL. im being damn long-winded. anyway i talked to emily that time almost cry. haha. dont know why also, maybe 'cause i felt so alone. then in church also almost cry so many times. damn scared my brother pang seh me. so we went for dinner. no money again so brother paid for me. after that, in the mrt home.. cry lorh. not very pai seh. haha. when we got off the mrt, saw kang kiat and friend. err.. then my brother made me embarrassed. i shall not say what he did. damn pai seh. so rubbish also. nothing much happened after that.

20january2008

today i have tuition at aspen! YAY! FINALLY LA! cant wait to see the teacher. haha. hmm.. i didnt fall asleep during service today so i would like to congratulate myself. CONGRATS QIWEN(:
blah blah. then just now called my dad 'cause handphone battery going flat soon and no charger with me. so asked if he could send me home but he pissed me off. he's always saying im impatient.. blah blah. today i was not lorh! then he talk so impatiently to me. then i became freaking pissed la. then i shout at him on the phone. then my sg all stare at me. on the verge of using vulgarities again. okay.. nothing much to say already.

buhbyes.

revived.

okay.. people.
back to bloggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.
lots and lots of stuff happened.
i think.
lots and lots of homework too.
school kinda sucks.
ESPECIALLY CHINESE CLASS!
sheesh. dont even wanna think about it.
the people in it. the work we gotta do. the stuff we gotta bring.
hmm.. something happened on tuesday. ha!
THIS SICKO..
CAME AND TELL ME AND JANELLE SOMETHING DAMN DISGUSTING.
SICKKKKK MAN.
thats all im revealing. ha.
the next day mr martin chan [dm] talked to us about it. so you can just imagine how gross was it. hmm.. what else..
ah. i know.
IM GETTING THE FLU BUG AGAIN!
BOO x2
maybe i shouldnt rest well, eat well and take medication.
then it gets worse and worse then i dont have to go to school!
haha. like primary school kid. so childish. tsk.

OH YA! OMG LA.
our timetable changes every two weeks. now our timetable put mdm rubiah / mr samuel wee as our english teacher.
OMG. MDM RUBIAH!
damn suay can. shittttttt. she's damn freaking extraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
sian. how am i gonna enjoy english lessons when SHE's the teacher?!

okay.. enough of that. thinking of it gives me headaches.
hmm.. dont know what else to say already.

buhbyes.
nights people.